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Yesterday night i could not sleep. I was up all night just thinking. I recently just go out of the longest relationship i had ever been in. This was also the most serious. Now that it has ended i feel completely lost. i know its been about 3 weeks now and i should be doing better but I’m not. I think the worst part about ending such a long relationship is all the false promises that were made. I had planned my whole future with that person that now that she’s gone I can’t see that far into my future anymore. I remember not that long ago we were sitting in my car, i had tooken her to one of my favorite spots to go. As we sat there we started talking about how i was scared that she was going to leave me. She turned around, looked me in the eyes and promised me she would NEVER leave me! I remember being all happy that day. I know it was my fault she’s gone but i wish that promised would have been kept. She probably thinks I’m happy, well not just her everyone probably thinks I’m happy but I’m not! Theres not a single day i have stopped thinking of her. i could be having fun then out of no where she crosses my mind and i wish she could be here having fun with me! She use to be that girl that was always down to do anything. she was my motivation and i was never scared to fail because i knew she would always be there for me no matter what. Everytime i had a problem i would always talk to her, she would even help me with my homework! she would do so much for me and i wouldn’t do that much for her. there are so many things i wish i could go back and fix! I know its probably to late and she’s probably moving on already. I don’t even know what the purpose of this post was. I guess i just want her to know that she has made a bigger impact in my life then she can ever imagine! I will always Love that girl, Jocelyn Arzate<3 2:27:10<3 

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